Cute, publish button. Verry cute. But it doesn't keep me from droning on, for I am a nagging infection of boredom who ever so briefly just considered blogging about the small dog-sized hair ball I just swept up from all the hard surfaces of my house. I think my chihuahua is always tricked into thinking we've gotten a third beast when this happens because she immediately rushes over to my sweepings each time and sniffs out the pile like she's smelling the rump of a new and interesting visitor. Oops, I guess I did just blog about sweeping my floor didn't I? Nice one Shans.
I think this week I'm feeling a little melancholy about my home alone situation (hands on cheeks and open mouthed McCauley Culkin style). It's no doubt the effect of the extroverted me being at home without constant people interaction and reaction. I am sulking in the fact that Trisha just started her job, that Becky is doing freelance(again with the money making-harumph) and Shelley is just up up and moving away. Boo-hoo and double HISS! Where is that shy little book lovin' introverted shan when you need her anyway. She'd be good company if she wasn't always wanting "alone time". Aargh.
Many days I do happily skip about the house by myself, easily being amused by a particular drawer of clothing or a purposefully "silly walk" I've adopted for funsies. I listen to my i-pod or read your blogs and talk on the phone a little to get all my people fixes likity-split! And "where on earth did the day go?" I nervously giggle realizing I am in fact still in my sleepwear at 1:00pm having been lost in a brain wander half the day.
But sometimes this self containment just doesn't cut it and I feel...well, plain ol' dull; a Dully Lama of my own not-worth-the-press country. At least in that case I might have people to oversee that have potential to do something interesting.
No, it's not that at all. In this case I think it's me not finding ANYTHING interesting anymore. I was looking at my t.v. last night wondering why I bother with all those extra accidentally free cable channels. I don't want to see Tila Tequila choosing which of her suiters she'll date by having contests to see which one can be the MOST disgusting in EVERY way.
I don't want to watch a big batch of model clones dance around with numbered suitcases in the attempt to make a choosing numbered suitcases game interesting. I don't even want to watch nervous cooks running around bumping into each other as an ANGRY chef from H-E-double hockey sticks Kitchen yells at them until THEY catch fire from all the pitchfork dodging they are doing around a hot grill.
With entertainment like this who needs depression? For reals now people COME ON!
I know that this is just my temporary dysphoria speaking. And come next Thursday, I'll be back at that glowing screen watching 'So you think you can dance dance dance?' in surgical focus with the rest of America. I'm just busying myself this week living out the quote "If you're bored it's only because you're a boring person" to the fullest. SO BE IT!! And you can suffer it too dear Shanslookers!
Oh my. I've gone and taken it out on you now haven't I? Sorry dear friends :) Do come back won't you? I promise not to say anything too scandalously raw because frankly, I'm not interesting enough to do so. Now, I must be off to pet I mean put my trash out. XOXO's to you and one raspberry for me. Plllllpt!